Wreck.

What is wrong with me?
I can't seem to feel the things I do in the past anymore, the things I would have readily dived in head first without a doubt. I keep playing off any affection towards a person by convincing myself that it will pass and there's absolutely nothing to make a fuss about. That any likeness towards the opposite sex is bad behaviour and needs to go. The notion of love seems too foreign to me now and I can't seem to wrap my head around it.
It's like I don't allow myself to feel anymore.

I desperately need to bring down my walls, walls that I'm not even sure exists to begin with. It might just be how I'm wired when faced with such situations.

Sigh.
Why am I becoming such a mess of a being?